So, trying to make use of the ‘ask’ feature, I linked my tumblr to my Facebook. A few people left me questions there rather than using the tumblr page, so I’m going to answer them here.

1. Out of LURPS (this is a local, real life role-playing community I am part of), which guys or girls do you wish you’d had (more) sexual encounters with and why?

This is a difficult question to be open about in public, but I said I’d answer anything so let’s see. I’m not going to name people, because one or two of my friends aren’t comfortable with their names being bandied around on the internet and I shall respect that.

I suppose the main person is someone I spent a few months really crushing on. He was the first guy I really wanted after the break up of a long term relationship. It turns out he was sleeping with someone else and couldn’t tell me ‘no’ outright, but preferred to have me trailing after him like a lovesick teenager (which of course, I was).

The second person is someone I lived with in the past, and lived next-door to before that. He is quite a traditionalist when it comes to male/female roles (or so it seems to me), which would be an interesting experience. I also once saw him buying wine, soft fruit, whipped cream and condoms on a Sunday morning, and that sounds like a pretty damned good Sunday to me.

The third is someone I wish there had been more encounters with. While not the ‘best’ sexual partner I ever had, he was one of the more experienced, and always smelled amazing. His body is fantastic and from time to time I fantasize over the first time anything happened between us. He was not afraid to take charge, and the time we had sex on his sofa was one of the more thrilling nights I’ve had - It makes it hard to watch ‘Part Troll’ by Bill Bailey and keep a straight face. Keep seeing him looking sleepy and rumpled and just so….fuckable.

There are people I’ve had passing thoughts over, but those are the ones that I really feel I missed out on.

2. Are there any parts of personality that you dislike or would like to change, whether you can control them or not?

I find it hard to keep motivated about something. I will often dive into something with fervor, to the exclusion of all else, only to back out after losing interest quickly. I would like to be able to train this single minded concentration to last a bit longer. I might actually complete projects then.

I’m too greedy. I can never just have one Jaffa Cake, or a piece of cake. I want the whole packet, or the most sweets, or a full plate of too much pasta, or every book in the series. Thankfully, I don’t think this equates to selfishness.

I’m materialistic. Anyone who knows me knows that I own far too much stuff, but I always want more. I have a working computer but want a better one. I have hundreds of books but want a Kindle. I want shiny saucepan sets and matching stationary and perfume and video games. This is a huge flaw and I really need to become more relaxed about it.

I have limited myself to these three. The depression in me wants to continue and list a lot of other things, but I think these are the ones that I’d certainly have agreed with before the onset of the depression.